Showing posts with label Country. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Country. Show all posts

Monday, July 23, 2018

The Long Dark Hallway (Soldier's Thoughts)

I'm standing alone in a long dark hallway.

 The silence is so loud that it almost drowns out my thoughts.

 So many things have happened to me that I don't completely understand. I feel paralyzed by fear, and unable to move forward.




But I don't have a choice, I must walk down this hallway... alone



As l walk, I feel as though I'm a specimen in a museum, as though I'm on display for all the world to see. Not like a popular exhibit that children flock to see and exclaim in awe over, but rather a sideshow oddity that children cower away from, and adult look down at disapprovingly. I feel the scrutiny from every single angle... even from myself. I tried to block out all these painful thoughts directed towards me. 



But I can't... I'm still walking... limping down this hallway... alone. 



I walk passed a section that is painted brightly with the red, white, and blue of the country that I love, and have sworn to defend... Words can't describe how proud I am that I have the honor to defend those I love... But there's something here too. Something not right; something dark and haunting... 






I begin to feel tears welling up in my eyes because everything that I've pushed for, everything that I spent my blood, my sweat, and my will... begins to feel empty... fickle.... betrayal...

I'm startled out of my thoughts by a sign being pounded against the wall of the hallway. It says, "Man up!  Don't be a bitch!" "There's no place for emotion in soldiers!" "you call yourself a soldier?" I tried to swallow my panic that I'm letting someone down... 


But I begin shaking, under this weight, as I continue down this hallway.... alone.




I begin to look to the walls for relief, a place to rest, maybe sleep for a few minutes to escape from all the stress that it building up in my chest... I feel like such a weakling. I'm a soldier, I shouldn't have to ask for help, I should be able to carry this weight... this isn't heavy. I feel like I'm letting down my country, my family, my wife, and my friends... but who can I turn to? 






I'm stuck in this hallway all by myself... There's no help in sight, or a door to get out. Always on display, never able to rest... 

As I continue to walk, I see the silhouette of something hanging from the ceiling... something cold, and dark... something sinister, just like me... 

something shunned and rejected by all... 

could it be salvation? Could it be rest? but there's no rest for the wicked and I'm as bad as they get... 



As I walk down this hallway... alone.  

Saturday, September 30, 2017

Do We Kneel or Do We Stand?

I have noticed that over the past few weeks there has been a huge amount of discussion that can only be considered a jumble of noise and confused remarks about why NFL players are kneeling during the National Anthem. While I don't feel that I am a subject expert of racial oppression or hatred of the US. I am an expert in patriotism and caring for our fellow men and women around us.

This whole controversy started sometime last year when Colin Kaepernick decided it would be a good idea to kneel during the National Anthem to show support for the black americans who had been "gunned down" in "cold blood" by cops around the country. His idea was that he was advocating for equality when it comes to how people are treated not only by police officers but also by the general public... or at least that is my understanding of what he thought he was doing.

Two thoughts here: 1. It's already a controversial topic about whether the cops had the right to shoot or not, but to add kneeling during arguably the most important moment of any sporting event into the mix was not the brightest idea. 2. Are black people the only race that is really unfairly shot by police? Or do police unfairly shoot all kinds of people? All these are thoughts that have gone through my head as I've tried to make sense of what is going on in our country.

Now, let me preface this by saying, I am a white male who is currently servicing his country in the military. I am required by duty and contract (if not love) to stand and salute the flag of the United States during the national anthem or any movement of the flag. I think that makes it quite clear where I stand, but I'm not finished talking yet.

I understand that there is definitely injustice that has worked its way into the law enforcement system in the country, though it is a great minority of people who are corrupted compared to what the news would have you believe. The amount of good cops out there vastly trumps the numbers of bad cops. That being said, why and what are the agendas that are really behind the news making such a big deal out of these issues of racial injustice? I haven't a clue, but I must ask, what more important issues are they covering up that we don't get any news about?

If you want me to give you a solution on how to fixed the problem of racial injustice, it doesn't start with the cops. It starts with the civilians and the general populace treating each other respectfully and with love, rather than suspicion and hatred. We as a country cannot begin to move forward until we can reconcile that we come from different backgrounds and we are still all equal when we start before God.

Why do we have to make race an issue at all? When I see my friends that are of a different race than me, I don't say "oh hey, that's my black friend Joe over here". I say," hey that's my friend Joe, we play soccer together!" you see, there are other ways of describing yourself than by your skin color or sexuality... in fact those things should not come into play at all when you are building a relationship with someone.

In the military all races are represented and all races are treated as equal. There is not a difference based on race. I have brothers to my right and to my left that are black, Asian, Mexican, and white and I would willingly lay down my life for all of them if I was called to do so. That's what it means to be an soldier, and that's what it means to be an American-- to celebrate our differences and learn from each other, while cultivating rich relationships with each other.

As for the flag, I have watched too many soldiers return home under a flag to ever be able to kneel while the National Anthem is played. It doesn't matter what you think you are protesting... if you kneel during the National Anthem you spit upon the graves of known and unknown soldiers who have perished to give us the amount of freedoms we have today. By kneeling you distract from the soldiers of the past who gave everything and insult the soldiers who are currently protecting you.

The flag does not represent the injustices in the country, it represents the ideology that this country was founded upon. Loyalty, Duty, Responsibility, Selflessness, Honor, Integrity, and Personal Courage. It represents what we as a country strive to be, not what we currently are.

So in short, don't mock the flag because you think it's at fault or the ideals of this country... because they're not. It's us, the people who must make a change  for love and courage rather than hatred and fear. Also, if you want to make a difference then actually find a way to make a difference instead of just changing your facebook pictures or kneeling. Go out there and get your hands dirty trying to bring a better tomorrow into existence.

Saturday, November 26, 2016

Episode 2: George Strait, Check Yes or No

Howdy Ya'll,
Yeah We're gonna start off strong in the realm of country. George Strait (aka the King of Country) starts us off with this series. "Check Yes or No" follows a couple from 3rd grade through life to the current point. Lyrically this song isn't deep, but it is adorable, and those of us who have a significant other, can remember those first time feelings when listening to this song, and it brings a smile to your face.
Musically, this song is more complicated but still superb. It matches the message of the song perfectly. This song embodies happiness and the cutest side of a loving romantic relationship. Musically this song isn't heavy, there aren't layers and layers of instruments. The key instruments to follow are the acoustic guitar, clean electric, violin, and bass. The drums don't need a focus because they are the glue that holds the entire song together. When listening to the intro and the first verse, listen for the lack of instruments (when he's singing) focus in on the finger picking pattern that he uses to compliment being young, and innocent if you will. Once you get to that first chorus, everything is in full swing, and makes you wanna dance with that special someone. Listen specifically to how the drums fit in with the bass pattern. It doesn't continue to build, but rather stays even, and consistent. It carries all the other instruments along, and guides each section of the chorus to it's conclusion. the chorus is built on 8th notes and compliments the the pattern found in the vocals perfectly. If you listen through the rest of the song listening to how the bass correlates with the vocals, it'll really make this song so much more enjoyable. Specifically because of the subject that is addressed in the song.
I have added a link of the song in this blog is if you wanna follow along as you read, that might help you pick it apart. As far as Country goes, it is a fairly easy genre to analyze. When he get to Techno/House, and heavy metal, it will get harder to dissect and figure out all the small details, but we will tackle that with we get to it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NHxS8wlDngI

Sunday, October 30, 2016

Episode 1: An Introduction into My Listening (Music)

If you follow me at all on Facebook I mentioned about a week ago that I was considering starting a series of blogs going over songs that I enjoy, and explaining in depth why I enjoy them, and why I believe they are so beautifully executed. This will range all over the map as far as genre is concerned so don't be afraid or weirded out by something in hip hop all the way to something in Christian Contemporary Music.
In my post on facebook I informed everyone that I am a musician. I play multiple instruments and enjoy many of them I might add. This makes listening to songs very interesting and exciting for me because I can usually break a song down in my head and listen to it, as though it was individual tracks. This allows me to pick apart songs, and put them back together to really enjoy the genius of whoever wrote/orchestrated the song.
I have decided that I will start this series and will at least be releases a new blog every week on this series until I run out of music.. That could be awhile.
I hope you guys enjoy this series, and if you have certain songs you think I should check out and analyze I would love to do that. (However, make sure they are appropriate.)

Until next time,
          Duckie